Mother's Day

Mother's Day

Mother's day this year was a little hard this time around. At the same time a good one. Last Mother's day my mom was supposedly sick with Pneumonia that she was trying to treat at home cause she did not want to be in the hospital. She just moved into her condo and starting her new life after my dad's passing. I bought her new dishes for her new condo for mother's day. Part why its been more then a year since my very first blog. Was taking care of my mom took a couple of months to fine out what was going on. My mom was diagnose with stage 4 lung cancer. By the time they caught it. It was too late. They day I found out they gave her 6-9 months to live. I was working and left to be with my mom. They told me mom has not cried yet. When I got to her she broke down. I am sure it did not help seeing me that way. I remember holding her crying and she told me it was going to be okay cause she was going to be with dad again. I remember someone telling me to stop crying that day that I was upsetting my mom. My mom knew me she knew and knows how I do with news. Even with my fathers passing I was the one she worried about the most out of all four of us kids. I guess you can say I am the weakest out of them all. To make a long story short time pass and my mother was only really given like 3 months from when she was diagnose. October 1st 2013 my mother passed away. I am glad she did not suffer too long. My mother knew I was having my second child. She also thought it was a boy. She pass away before we found out the sex of the baby. But she was right it was a boy. We went and took Mikey to go meet his grandparents on mothers day for the first time visit.

  I cried on and off all day. Happy and sad tears. This year I spent it as a mother of two. I spent it as I would do any other day. Loving, playing, tending, kissing and hugging my beautiful boys.

I would not have it any other way. Everyday I get to spend with them is a mother's day treat for me. 

Being a Mother means so much to me. I love the life as a mom more then anything else. 

Mother's Prayer

As I lay you down to sleep
I pray the Lord your soul to keep
Cause I don't need that much for me
This is a Mother's Prayer

I pray for angels by your side
Ask they watch you day and night
Walk with you all through your life
This is a Mother's Prayer

I pray that all the dreams you dream come true
And every star you wish upon
Grants every wish times two
I hope one day you get the chance
To truly see what a real love is
Like you've showed me

As I watch you fast asleep
I close my eyes and pray for peace
Cause now it means much more to me
This is a Mother's Prayer

And as you grow as seasons past
I hope that time won't move too fast
Though it is too much to ask
This is a Mother's Prayer

I pray that when you give your heart it's true
And all the love you give away
Comes back to you times two
I hope one day you get the chance
To truly see what a real love is
And what you mean to me

In this great big world you can't stay small forever
Cause before I know it you'll be grown
And standing on your own
But I hope these words are something that you'll treasure
And you get the chance to whisper them
To children of your own

I pray that all the dreams you dream come true
And every star you wish upon
Grants every wish times two
I hope one day you get the chance to truly see
What a real love is like you've showed me

This is a Mother's Prayer

-Carnie Wilson-